Hope For Today! July 31


Dream Big! Our God is Bigger!

Moments of Hope!

My Personal Testimony 7/30/22

The Story of Us

A Hope for Depression online zoom class has forever changed my life and I want to “PAY IT FORWARD”.

Let’s go back to June 2020. Rebecca, the counselor and facilitator of the Hope for Depression Tuesday night online zoom class talked about forgiveness and how it can eat away at you and destroy your life. It was then that I realized all the bitterness and unforgiveness that I had within me of how badly we had been wronged by family and other people. It had put me in the season of my life I was going thru. That bitterness and unforgiveness turned into depression and I was in a very black hole I never thought I would see in my lifetime again.

Emotionally, I was in a very dark depressed place from everything that had happened leading up to that night. Major life changes had happened in my life in the months prior that forever have changed the course of our lives.

Todd & I will be married 38 years on December 22. We have two awesome boys, Nicholas 25 married to his beautiful wife, Julia, and Zachery, 22.

Last year, 2021, was the most difficult year of our marriage for me.

On December 10, 2017, my husband, Todd, fell on the ice at the church he worked at, and was knocked unconscious and as time progressed he was diagnosed with PTSD from a traumatic brain injury from the fall. As months followed the church fired him so we lost our insurance and his livelihood. Todd has always been my rock and my strength since we got married.

Because of Todd losing his job, losing health insurance and because his family cutting him out of his inheritance, we had to sell our home that we built on the 27 acre farm that Todd grew up on. We owned our home for 28 years on the top of a beautiful mountain facing the Blue Mountain in Pennsylvania.

This scripture has always blessed me.
“Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.”
Matthew‬ ‭5:14‬ ‭KJV
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I felt like we where a light on the hill. Only God allowed us to live in such a beautiful home and share with those we loved. When the boys where small I did bible studies in our home for people struggling with depression on the Battlefield of the Mind, Breaking Free and many others.

I was diagnosed as being bipolar when I was 21 years old. I only shared that with my psychiatrist / psychologist and I shared with the Christian counselor of the group privately. Rebecca is a Christian counselor I talked to also. I shared that I have anxiety and depression with the world but not bipolar because of the stigma that comes with being bipolar. When I was 21 years old an was hospitalized for 2 weeks, Todd cried when he had to sign me into the psych ward because he was afraid I would never forgive him. Back then it was called a nervous break down. The manic episode happened because we started to get involved with Amway, and I listened to the tapes constantly, and I believed we where going to be independently wealthy and everything spiraled out of control. I was very manic an in approximately 3-5 days spent eight to ten thousand dollars with limos all over the Lehigh Valley, bought expensive clothes and purchases because of what I believed in my mind was happening.

After being released from the psych ward, which was one of the worst experiences of my life, I was severely depressed from all the medication they put me on and because I believed everyone that was involved when it happened, thought I was crazy. Todd made me believe in myself again after time pasted and a lot of his love and support.

When all this happened I had a very high paying job at AT&T Network Operations Center, in Bedminster, New Jersey, as a supervisor. I was depressed as a teenager. I have 5 siblings . Two other sisters and I ended up being the tallest girl, at 6 feet. I have struggled with being so tall my whole life. I was bullied as a teenager. Todd has always praise me for how beautiful my height is but being bullied as a teenager makes it harder to get your confidence back. Todd has always been my best friend and the love of my life.

Todd & I both grew up in Christian homes. My Dad was a truck driver and worked long hours almost everyday but Sunday’s while my Mom had to hold things together at home. I couldn’t wait to turn 16 and start driving and working so I had money. We had to buy our own cars, pay our own insurance and then what was left was my money. I worked 3 jobs in high school so I could have nice clothing for the first time in my life instead of hand me downs. Todd’s home was very much more legalistic then how I was raised. His oldest brother is 18 years older then him and he’s the baby of 5 boys. Both his parents have passed now. His Mom was a very Godly women with great faith and his Dad was very strict and didn’t show much love to Todd. Todd and his father did not have a close relationship. Todd always had to work on the farm at home or the apartments that his Dad owned when he was young and when he was 12 years old started working as a grounds keeper for Mr. Lentz and he would ride his bike there. Todd & I got together when I was 18 and Todd was 21 years old. We had been friends all of our teenage years. We dated for less then a year and in August of 1984 got engaged instead of me going to college. We decided on a Christmas wedding December 22. We were together 12 years before we had Nicholas and then in 2000, three years later, we had Zachery.

When Nick was born on March 6, 1997, Nick was born on my birthday. I stayed home with him a year on maturity leave and went back to AT&T but they could not keep me part time so I became a stay at home Mom. I was probably a functioning manic mom, doing all the fun things a little boy could dream of and then we decided it would be nice for Nick to have a playmate. Zach, was born April 13, 2000. Being a stay at home Mom was very hard for me, knowing that I was responsible for the person they would one day become because of my example.

Through the years I have had manic & depressed season, always trying to find that one thing that was going to make me happy. Todd has stuck with me through thick and thin. In 2003, when the boys were small, Nick was 6 & Zach was 3 years old, Todd could see that I could not handle it so he changed his job making over $100,000 a year to working at a church. Nicholas was very strong willed and Todd could see I needed his help with the boys so he took a much lower paying job at a church, 5 minutes from home, so he was closer to home to help me more with the boys.

In 2003, I became a Mary Kay Consultant and within a short amount of time earned a Mary Kay car. I had gotten $28,000 in debt during that manic episode. Only I knew there was no way to get out of this mess. I tried to take my life by taking a lot of my medication. Todd found me in the car unconscious and took me to the ER. He knew what had happened so he called Dr. G, my doctor, and he was at the hospital and they admitted me as taking to much medication because of a severe migraine. Todd knew if I ended up in the psych ward again I would never recover. Dr. G agreed that if I went to a 2 week outpatient program that he would agree to that. So only Todd and my older sister, Michelle, knew that I tried to take my own life. Michelle was involved because she took me to the Mitchell Clinic everyday and help take care of Nick & Zach while Todd worked.
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Insert from
“Dream Big! Our God is Bigger! Treasures in the Darkness.”

Chapter 6
Dream When You Have Failed:
You Are Made for Success.

Tell yourself a new story. Make your story in line with what God says that will happen that you could not make happen on your own. If I had not told myself a new story, I’d let the fear, intimidation, and insecurity keep playing in my mind. Don’t let the wrong story keep you from your dreams. In 2011, I was trading in the stock market for about two years and there was this wash rule that I did not realize, and I ended up losing over $100,000. Needless to say, I had failed on a very big scale and felt like I had no self-worth at all because of what had happened. Our marriage could have fallen apart, and things could have gone terribly wrong because of that situation, but God spared my life, our marriage, and we made it through a horrible time in our life.

Insert from Chapter 10
Dream When You Are Disappointed:
God Has a Divine Plan

Hope For Today! was birthed from making a choice one January morning in 2022, when day after day, | had no purpose, no reason to get out of bed. I thought, I’m not the only one in this world that feels this way, and it’s time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to start helping hurting people that are going through the same thing that I’m feeling. I felt loneliness, isolation, depression, and despair, not really having any reason to feel that way. Even if you have people who love you and only want to see you happy, there are times you don’t have any joy or peace in your life. I don’t know if anyone can relate to how I was feeling, but I knew that God had more for me in this life then the life I was living. I decided to change my thinking, my attitude and trusted God to lead me where He wanted me to go. I got up, started to exercise every morning, read God’s Word, prayed, started my blog, listened to praise and worship music to feel God’s presence intimately and trust Him to determine my steps. He has taken my brokenness and is mending my heart. Do you know the difference between a priceless diamond and a lump of coal? A diamond is a lump of coal that made good under pressure, the trouble it endured made it valuable. You need to write that down somewhere. “The trouble it endured made it valuable.” That is incredible! When you think about the trouble we go through in life, if we allow God to use us, He will mold us into something beautiful to be a shining light in this world.

“We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed.”
(2 Cor. 9 NLT)

In the end of 2019 & January 2020 we sold our two homes in Pennsylvania & Upstate New York and bought a 36’ Motorhome. March the pandemic hit and I went into a deep depression from all the lose and isolation. That’s when I found the Hope for Depression class on Zoom in June 2020.

I shared my praise on Tuesday nights online zoom Hope class because only God could have brought us to Houston Texas in January 2021. My Christian counselor, Rebecca has been by my side since I first met her on Zoom, June 28, 2020. She is that special friend, and spiritual mentor that I emailed my praises and prayers to and prayed for me during those very difficult time.

After being in Houston, Texas with our Motorhome, we where blessed to be able to go to Big Ben National Park, Grand Canyon, San Diego, back to Texas, Florida, Georgia and back home to Pennsylvania.

I am reminded in Hope class every week you have to get into God’s Word and it will change your life. It’s true, God’s Word and praying His Word is building my faith to believe again anything is possible. I am praying for God’s favor to inspire and give hope to the hurting that will forever change the course of our lives. God is faithful in all things! This verse I learned in Sunday school as a little girl.

Casting ALL your cares and anxieties on Him for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

In January 2022, I told our two adult sons, Nick & Zach I was bipolar because I needed them to know the truth so I could stop living behind the mask of bipolar and give hope to the hurting. Nick & Zach encouraged me that whatever I set my mind to with God’s help I could accomplish.

My passion is to give hope to hurting people, and their families, and give them Hope & Inspiration through God’s Word.

I wrote a book in May 2022, “Dream Big! Our God is Bigger! Treasures in the Darkness.” I am sharing my personal testimony and following God to fulfill His purpose for my life. I believe if I seek God’s Word, He will show me my purpose and I will fulfill my Destiny for my life.

Hope! Believe! Become! First you need to become aware and then you need to make a decision and then the strategies that you’re going to use in order to get to where you want to go. I am in the process of developing a coaching program to help people to find, follow and fulfill their purpose.
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I wrote a letter to myself dated 2/3/23 and put in my book and in that letter it says…

My dream if I ever had unlimited funds, I would open a…

Dream Big! Our God is Bigger! Institute

A free Institute for the emotionally hurting to receive inpatient and outpatient Christ centered medical care and love. It’s not cheap to stay healthy when you have emotional issues, but God has blessed us and we have resources to find Christian psychiatrist, psychologists and doctors over the years. Prescriptions are so expensive to and that’s another reason I would love this dream.

“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.” (Mat7:7 KJV)

Blessings,
Melissa Liggitt 💕


When Helen Keller was asked what could be worse than having no sight, she said, “To have sight but no vision.” I want you to be convinced that your life is not over! There are places you need to see, cities you need to tour, books you need to read, people you need to meet and pictures you need to take. Big Dreams you need to pursue!
(End of book insert)
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“For with God nothing shall be impossible.” Luke‬ ‭1:37‬ ‭KJV‬‬

We need to tell ourselves a new story of Hope! Every time we get knocked down don’t stay there for days, months or even years. See your mistake and learn from it and grow to new heights and move into even Bigger Dreams for your life! That’s the biggest asset from writing my book is not to waste anymore time in self pity. Realize what we are to learn from the situation and then be the best version of yourself!

God is Faithful!
The Best is Yet To Come!

Enjoy the Journey!
Live with Passion!
Blessings,
Melissa Liggitt 💕

We are living a blessed life! 🙏
We are living the Dream! 😎

(We must speak it by faith into existence!)

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Enjoy the Journey!

Live with Passion!

Melissa 💕 

Blog by:  Melissa Liggitt

Believe In Miracles! Blessings! Melissa

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