Hope For Today! January 12, 2024

Hope For Today! The Best Is Yet To Come!

It’s been 2 years since I shared with our two sons, Nick and Zach that I was bipolar. It’s been a rough two years. One, because being manic depressive / bipolar is hard enough, and to Break the stigma of bipolar and live in freedom is even harder. I have been dealing with this illness since I was 21 years old, 1987, and I am still living behind the mask of sadness, depression and wanting to give up.  When I lay in bed at night I don’t want to be here because of all the pain but I know it is wrong to just give up , but how do I  get well. two years ago January 2022 I knew God wasn’t done with me yet but life was so sad and depressed even though I had so many people that loved me.  I just didn’t want to go on. But here I am again. I thought being in the south would help, but it’s not. We are away from our children and our sweet precious granddaughter Hazel and it’s just one more bad decision I made that I thought would make things better. It hasn’t. 

I’m going to try to get into a clinical research study at Augusta University Medical Center as soon as possible so I can finally start  to get some intense outpatient care to get help to get to the root of a lot of my issues. We have struggled in silence my whole life because I was afraid of what people would think but I wasted so much time not being happy with life because I also wanted it to seem like we had this perfect life. We don’t, nobody does, I think it is part of my illness  and because of that has lead to a lot of my Insecurities, loneliness, isolation , depression and not being content with our life because of my  illness and what it has done to our lives. 

I’m not going to give all the fluff any more because life has been hard and it’s really taken a toll on us.

In June 2023 & July 2023, Todd & I spoke at Camp Anderson Anchored at Next Gerneration kids camp. Things on the surface went well and we ministered and connected with the kids but I had a total mental breakdown and manic episode that I needed to be hospitalized but wasn’t.  Because I wasn’t hospitalized in July/Aug 2023 when I should have been, I’m going to do it now. If anyone can relate with what I am going through and knows God still has a plan and purpose for your life because you are reading this and you are still breathing. Comment back and share things that maybe God is showing you in your life that might really help someone else.

I’m not going to give up but wanted to share with those that are struggling too, don’t struggle in silence. There is help available but we can’t hide behind the mask. We also have to do our part and believe that we can get well. Reach out to someone today and take that first step.

Try to start your day off by saying…

-Today is going to be a great day!

-Gods mercy is new every morning !

-God will give you the grace for this day! 

Think about those 3 sentences. Two are scripture and are promises from God’s Word. If you’re struggling take it minute by minute and God will give you the grace for 5 minutes then 10. 

All you need is the faith as small as a mustard seed! 

Believe for your Healing! 🙏 

Stand In Faith!  

Stand in the Gap for Someone! 🌟 

Believe In Miracles ❤️‍🩹 

Pay It Forward!   

Many Blessings! ⭐️ 

Melissa 💕 

Blog by Melissa Liggitt

🌟 DREAM BIG!  🌟 

Believe In Miracles! Blessings! Melissa 💕

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