A Blessed Life. My Personal Testimony

A Blessed Life.

My Personal Testimony

The Story of Us

A Hope for Depression class has forever changed my life and I want to PAY IT FORWARD. The counselor of the Hope class talked about forgiveness and how it can eat away at you and destroy your life. It was then that I realized all the bitterness that I had within me of how badly we had been wronged by family and people and had put me in the season of my life I was going thru. That bitterness turned into depression and I was in a very black hole I never thought I would see in my lifetime again.

Emotionally I was in a very dark depressed place from everything that had happened leading up to that night. Major life changes had happened in my life in the months prior that forever have changed the course of our lives.

Todd & I are married for 37 years. We have two boys, Nick 24 married to Julia, and Zach, 21.

Last year, 2021, was the most difficult year of our marriage for me.

On December 10, 2017, my husband, Todd, fell on the ice at the church, he worked at, and was knocked unconscious and as time progressed he has PTSD from a traumatic brain injury from the fall. As months followed the church fired him so we lost our insurance and his livelihood. He has always been my rock since we got married.

Because of Todd losing his job and what happened with his brothers cutting him out of his inheritance we had to sell our home that we built on the 27 acre farm that he grew up on. We owned on the top of a beautiful mountain facing the Blue Mountain in Pennsylvania.

This scripture has always blessed me.
Matthew 5:14

Only God allowed us to live in such a beautiful home and share with those we loved. When the boys where small I did bible studies in our home for people struggling with depression on the Battlefield of the Mind and Breaking Free and many others.

I was diagnosed as being bipolar when I was 21 years old. I only share that with my psychiatrist and psychologist and I shared with the Christian counselor of the group privately. She is a Christian counselor I talk to now. I only share that I have anxiety and depression because of the stigma that comes with being bipolar. When I was 21 years old an was hospitalized for 2 weeks, Todd cried when he had to sign me into the psych ward because he was afraid I would never forgive him. Back then it was called a nervous break down. The manic episode happened because we started to get involved with Amway and I believed we where going to be independently wealthy and everything spiraled out of control.

After being released from the hospital I was very depressed from all the medication they put me on and because I believed everyone that was involved when it happened thought I was crazy. Todd made me believe in myself again after a lot of his love and support.

When all this happened I had a very high paying job at AT&T Network Operations Group, in Bedminster, New Jersey, as a supervisor. I was depressed as a teenager. I have 5 siblings . Two other sisters and I ended up being the tallest, at 6 feet. I have struggled with being so tall my whole life. Todd has always praise me for how beautiful it is and tells me daily how beautiful I am. He is my best friend and the love of my life.

Todd & I both grew up in Christian homes. Todd’s home was very much more legalistic then how I was raised. His oldest brother is 18 years older then him and he’s the baby of 5 boys. Both his parents have passed now. His Mom was a saint, very Godly women with great faith and his Dad was very strict and didn’t show much love to Todd. Todd and his father were never close.

When Nick was born on March 6, 1997, Nick was born on my birthday. I stayed home with him a year on maturity leave and went back to AT&T but they could not keep me part time so I became a stay at home Mom. I was probably a functioning manic mom, doing all the fun things a little boy could dream of and then we decided it would be nice for Nick to have a playmate. Zach, was born April 13, 2000. Being a stay at home Mom was very hard for me, knowing that I was responsible for the person they would one day become because of my example.

Thru the years I have had many manic & depressed season, always trying to find that one thing that was going to make me happy. Todd has stuck with me thru thick and thin. In 2003, when the boys were small, Nick was 6 & Zach was 3 years old, Todd could see that I could not handle it so he changed his job making over $100,000 a year to working at a church. Nicholas was very strong willed and Todd could see I needed his help so he took a much lower paying job, 5 minutes from home, so he was closer to home to help me with the boys

In 2003, I became a Mary Kay Consultant and within a short amount of time earned a Mary Kay car. I had gotten $28,000 in debt during that manic episode. Only I knew there was no way to get out of this mess. I tried to take my life by taking a lot of my medication. Todd found me in the car unconscious and took me to the ER. He knew what had happened so he called Dr. G, my psychiatrist, and he was at the hospital and they admitted me as taking to much medication because of a severe migraine. Todd knew if I ended up in the psych ward again I may never recover. Dr. G agreed that if I went to a 2 week outpatient program that he would agree to that. So only Todd and my older sister, Michelle, knew that I tried to take my own life. Michelle was involved because she took me to the Mitchell Clinic everyday and help take care of Nick & Zach while Todd worked.

In the end of 2019 & January 2020 we sold our two homes in Pennsylvania & Upstate New York and bought a 36’ Motorhome. March the pandemic hit and I went into a deep depression from all the lose and isolation. That’s when I found the Hope for Depression class on Zoom.

I shared my praise on Tuesday nights Hope class because only God could have brought us to Houston Texas in January 2021. My Christian counselor, Rebecca, has been by my side since I first met her on Zoom, June 28, 2020. She is that special friend, and mentor to me that I email my praises and prayers to and prays for me daily.

After being in Houston, Texas we where blessed to be able to go to Big Ben and Grand Canyon, San Diego, back to Texas, Florida, Georgia and back to Pennsylvania.

I am reminded in Hope class every week you have to get into God’s Word and it will change your life. It’s true, God’s Word and praying His Word is building my faith to believe again anything is possible. I am praying for God’s favor to inspire and give hope to the hurting that will forever change the course of our lives. God is faithful in all things! This verse I learned in Sunday school as a little girl.

1 Peter 5:7
Casting ALL your cares and anxieties on Him for He cares for you.

The friendship I have made during this pandemic thru the Hope Class are priceless. The Battlefield of the Mind Bible study we have on Sunday nights on zoom have been such a blessing that we can share with each other our praises and struggles and be a support to stand together in Christ

We are living a blessed life.

My passion is to help hurting people, and their families, and give them Hope & Inspiration through God’s Word.

Melissa Liggitt 💕

I am writing a book, Bipolar- Our Life Journey.

A Blessed Life